suffer

english make me suffer alot
really suffer
make me like living in the hell
aiya
very depress now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

am i deceiving myself??

oya
today went to an exhibition in suntec city
all distinction works of top students in singapore design school was displaying over there
product design,game design,interior design, media design
oh my god
fashion design also have!!!!
look at the picture below!!

awesome!!

it is my favourite course when i was still in secondary school!!

i like fashion designing

and i told my friends

i will be a famous fashion designer in future

i will create my own brand in future

i will have my fashion show in future

...............................

shut up shut up

all nonsense!!!

in the end,i choose interior design

why i choose that?

i also duno why

but the thing i sure

is i have not brave enough to step in fashion designing

i scare after graduate i m not going to be famous

n just design some cheap shirt in a small shop or a company

so

so,i gave up

but today

the exhibition has bring me back to the past

and got a little bit regret why i not studying fashion design now

why i gave up easily

thinking that i shall design some cloth now

n not drawing all this stuff(picture below)

but i know

once i decided to study interior design

i must be responsible on it

btw,interior design is not bad also

but it canot be replace the awesome fashion design in my heart!!

;-)

finally!!!i'm done

oh ya....
finally,i'm done!!!!
to complete this assignment,took my time around 1 week
means that 7days,everyday did the same things
the toothpicks,sticked 1 by 1 by using elephant glue
n now,i still can smell the smell of elephant glue
i hate the pungent smell,so disgusting




in process.....

final product!!!

our task is to create a model by using 1 verb

and i choose "Plunge"......

for this models,i got inspired by roller coaster

but the lecturer said that canot be too story like

must be something like very abstract

in the same time,we still need to create space,n playing around the wooden frame..

anyway,i m quite satisfied with my model

:-)

sleep late

sleep late today again!!!!
and i ask back myself
why i late sleep?
i begin to ponder
and finally i even can't give myself a acceptable reason



but the problem is
when rushing an assignment
or in the class
i feel very sleepy,or even headache
and tell meself
2day i shall sleep early!!!

after went back home
duno what make me feel powerfull
full of energy
feel like not going to sleep yet
later then sleep
but after 1 hour, 2 hours, 3 hours
i still not in bed
even though i feel very sleepy or headache
or doing nothing
i still dun want to get in bed


maybe,i used to it already
since 13 yearls old
i alway late sleep till tonight!!!

i cut my hair

oooooo

halo people

i cut my hair already!!!

ahha

the messy hair gone liao

haha
quite nice,right??
thanks the barber..:-)
hope that can attract more and more girls look at me..
heheheh..he
:-P)

smile

working today
just only 4 hours
but it seems like a million hours
the clock turns slowly
slow like hell
so irritating
and the work place
i hate it i hate it
i dont like to work now
and they always arrange me to do what i dont want and hate to do
pls!!!!
feel like want to resign already
furthermore, there is some disgusting people there..finally reveal the real characteristic
i really dont like the place now
thinking of whether want to resign or still continue to work?
make me depress the whole afternoon

when on the way home
i met a small boy in mrt
he was so cute
b4 i alighted
he smile to me
cute n innocent, without worries
his smile sucessfully enlighten me
:-)

i miss the time when i was still a small boy....

i was tired

school started can count as 3 week after 2mr
but its seem like just the 1st week
i just realise that there is many assignments
i shall start doing now
but i'm lazy
everyday late to school,late to class.....
then having class half way,go out relax relax
that is very buang la
haha
but is quite funny

i think i shall do my assignment right now
feel like the life now
is quite tiring,sux............
but,no pain no gain
accept the pain now,future will be fruitfull
who call me want to be a rich guy..:-)

all the best

ALL THE BEST!!!
before,i treat this way to wishing people was so old-fashioned!!
like an aunty
like nothing special for me..
because everyone using it...
and i never use this to great or wish a person


but recently
i found that it was really freaking meaningfull
and i start,aLL the best all the best
to great all my friends
to wish them,best in everything all the way
bcoz i mind them
every one have thier own "business".
we mignt not always together.
just hope that
you all are best all the time




time gone
and the same time
i also grown
and realised many things in my life
:-)

back to normal

school restart by tomorrow

how about my part time working?
now the place like shit
and even make me don't like to work now
like fall down from the heaven to the hell suddenly
i miss the previous time we working together
so happy
so nice
its well

but....
staffs that treat us well leave 1 by 1

anway,
jiamin,alvin,sunny,charlene,anjo
thanks you all so much
the time we work together really was the great time for me in singapore
nice to meet you all
n i love you all too
:-)


everyting,just back to normal
n still packing what to bring to school 2mr...
singapore poly,i m back!!!

good night!!

strange feelings

recently
strange feelings suddenly came over me
feeling like i m going to take my long sleep soon
i don't know why
and i am not scared of it

if one day,this things really came over me,really happend on me..
i will tell myself
i am quite satisfy with my life now
and what i have now
thank everyone that have walked in my life story
thanks a lot
i learnt and experienced a lot from you all
;-)

stop it!!!

i know that i m girly
my actitude
my patern
even my face
also look like a girl
but i m not sissy

why??
not i want also
maybe i dun have brother,i have 3 sisters
i play with my 3 sisters since i was borned in this world
i also want to be a man guy
but.....

girly is stick to me since i was a child
"chinen is so girly"
this sentences i heard a lot of time.



girly is ok
i still can accept
but
can you all please stop saying me i am a sissy or gay or what
sometimes its hurt me
its really hurt me deeply......
its really a pathetic thing in my life

heart and brain washer

oya....
quite depress recently
i duno why and the reason that make me down
life like very stress
stress till i feel like don't want to smile to anyone
really
but when working,that is a must to show our smiling face to every customers
no,that's very fake!!!
haiz..

and then i feel like very complicate
i can be very happy and very depress in 1 day
am i going to mad already?
or......


i think i need a heart or brain washer now
to wash all my memories
where to get those things?
haiz
sometime,i hope that
something drop from upstair
then pricisely drop on my head
so that i can lost all the memory
then that is no CHINEN in this world!!!
the new chinen appear
restart his life in this stupid and complicated world!!

happy birthday to elspeth

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you!!!

:-)

chinese

malay

english

korean

cantonese

all language we know also sang for you that day

feel touched or not?

hahaha...

happy birthday la....

:-0

wish your dream come true!!!

randomly

someone ask me
love,kinship,friendship,money
what is my priority??

i replied...
1st is kinship,
2nd friendship,
3rd money
4th love


but after that
i begin to ponder
why i will replied like that
i realised that all the four things are important in my life
actuali the four things must be balance, no priority
no why
that's life!!!

the 11th

today
was the 11th day i work in pasta waraku
as a waiter

the 1st time i work
really experience a lot
faced a lot of dirrerent people
some of them are fine,but...
some of them are bitchy too...
haha
but its ok...
still can cope la...
just take experience
i voluntary want to work
furthermore
can get money!!!!!!
ahhaha
i want a lot of money
i am a money face!!


but,actuali
work is not easy as i think
my EQ is quite low
have to learn how to control my mood
i will suddenly down easily
or suddenly high easily
i will do my best la..

anyway
work,is an another important part in my life!!!